floofed and shit

fucck fuck fuck fuck fuckf cufkc fuickj fuckf uckf uickf uckf ucukf fuck
holy hell
im floating

i wonder what happened to me?

i was such a good kid
and now im not
did i fuck my life up?
no
i just made it better
i hate my old self anyways
cut loose
enjoy life
change for the better

hey you,

i eat enough, dont i?
i mean, most of it is junk food,
i should prolly eat something of value
its difficult cause
my whole fam eats the big EFFIN M
and i cant
i just
CANT
everyone is like, "zac, youre annorexic"
OBVIOUSLY IM NOT
im just skinny because
im skinny
always have been
if anything, i have PUT ON weight
but people think i look thiner
and i dont eat breakfast
cause i get stomach aches when i eat in the morning
and i dont usually eat lunch
cause i dont pack one in the morn

ON ANOTHER NOTE------------->
I AM SUCH A STONER
when did that happen
it juss gives me somthin to do
ya know
cause life is just too dull to be sober all the time
there is too much time
and being home sucks
nuffin to do
so i get baked
and the borring things seem fun
LIFE SHOULD BE FUN
but its not
SO I MAKE IT FUN
bad decision
maybe


i will be fine
stop your worrying
i know what im doing
and even if i dont
you dont either
so stop giving me advice
im not going to listen to it
even if i want to

i just gotta be me
i just gotta be me

its not like im dying
i may be speeding up the process
but who the hell wants to live to be 70 anyways
i will be happy when im 69
(lol 69)

LEAVE ME BE
I KNOW WHAT IM DOING


everyone thinks i stoped drawing as well
"zac you were so good at it, why did you stop?"
i never stopped
you just stopped paying attention

SO PAY ATTENTION
CLASS
STUDY THESE NOTES

oh shit, i have to do homework

peace

-meerkat

lame

this is lame
my life is lame
well
not my life
but it is my life
make the best of it
i want to put all the silver linings into a suitcase
a small suitcase
travel light
and go on a road trip
wind in my hair
head out the window
for i am a dog and enjoy howling at the opposing cars as they pass
or as we pass them
mouth open
eating the wind of our journey
tasting the voyage to wherever and whatever
whatever
not until im old enough
eighteen seems to be the magic number here
hurry up time
i want to piss you away
sleep the days away
untill im on the road
flipping off cars that dare to stand before me
and laugh at me
poke and prod at my dreams
fuck you
FUCK YOU
car crash
end
done
finished
over
stop
out~

lets go

lets go to the end
to the sharpest point
to the last stop on the buss
to the last planet in the solar system
to the end of the earth
to the end of time
to infinity
to the last drop
to the vanishing point
to the bottom of the sea
to hell and back again
to the wild blue yonder
to where the wild things are
to the bottom of the barrel
to the top of the mountain

-zac

ess'n a jay

17 years jhon.
17 years.
whose jhon?
hell if i know.

nastalgiac:
its an aphrodisiac,
that makes you nastalgic.

burns:
first degree, no problem.
second degree, whatever.
third degree, one bandaid.
fourth degree, two bandaids.

im walking on the ceiling!

wait, what?

more to come. stay tuned.
-meerkat

up in an elevator

going up
and here we are
the place where i can walk on the ceiling
and just laugh about it
thinking what i say
and saying what i think
its good to be in an elevator
where i can reach the stars withought even trying

going well?

not really
havent started
maybe tomorrow
even though i work
all nighter?
maybe
i think im gunna
had a drink
jittery
energetic?
hopefully
i will start soon
START NOW
lets go
okay
START
pencils down
not yet
i need 1800 words by monday
lets go
blah
i need a smoke.
kbye
the fuck am i even writing about?
fuck it
done~

ovular trees

lets go to the feild.
witch one?
that one looks good.
over there?
to the left.
oh, i see it.
good?
good.
great?
we will see.

theres a tree over there.
thoes trees look better.
in a circle?
in that circle.
its more ovular.
nothings perfect.
your perfect.
not as perfect as you.

the rass is soft here.
yeah, that last feild was scratchy.
itchy.
irritating.
hmmmmmm.
yeah.

i want to lay here fgorever.
untill autumn.
let us be covered in a blanket of leaves.
then it snows.
i will keep you warm.
promise?
promise.

not a cloud in the sky.
a bit borring.
whys that?
clouds make shapes.
if i could have pointed out a shape.
yeah?
it would have been a meerkat.
figures.
shut up.
never.

homework is borring
i want to go to a feild while the weathers still nice.
bwah.

night~

that "re-doing my life" sort of thing

the next week or two, maybe even month or two
i will let you know how it goes

cheers~

house animal jabber

i was looking at my dog
laying in the sun
the sun that glanced into the window in my living room
he looks so peaceful
no worries
no work
no school
no drama
no pressure
no depression
no addiction
just blissful ignorance to the world
excited so easily by the little things
bones
treats
walks
hes an animal in a house
to be him
if only
no worries would gather in my head
must be boring though
i will take him on an adventure
he is thirteen and counting
lets make his last few the best few

cheers~

more shabby poetry

I'm feeling shabby today.
Can't say why.
Cause' i dont know the reason.
I'm feeling shabby today.
Won't say why.
Its just a change in season.

My clothes are old.
My clothes are worn.
My hands are cold.
My breath is warm.

Moan for me.
I gave you tea.
It's not for free.
So moan for me.

I'm submissive.
You're permissive.
(wink wink)

When i yelp.
I need your help.

OUT.
pce~

i hate

i hate when somone tells me im attractive, and i cant honestly say the same about them, even though its what they want to hear.

meerkat language

things you hear me say?

no worries: i say this allot, i dont worry about allot
spaded: horny
roight: english accent on right, sarcasm
skeet skeet: i say it when im bored
im sorry: i say it allot when im drunk
i got it: i say it when i know i can do something
kinda thing: i add it to the end of sentences sometimes
your a goof: somebody is being like... a goof
awh, buddy: i think i picked that up from brendan
kiddo: i call everyone kiddo
maybe...: i think i got that from brendan too

thats all i can think of for now
more later

pce~

pizza plunders

working at pizza hotline, the call center
here is how it goes down

people dont know their phone number
people dont know their adress
people dont know the adress of the hotel they are at
people want the pizza delivered to obscure locations like parking lots and parks
people complain that the medium pizzas are too small even though thats what they ordered
people try to use web or walk in coupons even though it says you have to order online or go to the store to use it on the coupon
people let their kids order the pizzas and complain that they did not receive what they told their kid to buy even though the kid never mentioned it
people change their orders every second pizza witch causes confusion
people as me to list the thirty or more toppings
people ask me what they should buy
people say "yes" when i ask them if they want thin or regular crust
people ask me about deals that dont exist then get mad and say they had bought that before even though we never had that deal in the past
people dont know if they live on a street, avenue, cresent, boulivard, drive, place, ect...
people dont tell me they want extra sauce on all the pizzas untill they order all five of them
people dont know if they live in the west, east, south or north
people answer the phone with "i want this pizza" before i can ask them where its going and how its getting there
people call on their cell phones when they are in the car going home when there needs to be a person at the house to pick up the order and if they are not i get in trouble and they get mad
people ask me about obscure deals they heard of then get mad when it takes me a moment to match it with a deal we actually have
people spell their street name wrong
people go "UHMMMMMMMMMMMMMM" really loud into the phone between every second word
people who prank call dont know how to prank call and just yell into the phone
people have accents i cant understand for the life of me then get mad and hang up when i ask them to repeat themselves
people want cheese on the bottom of their pizza
people think i can give them free stuff

and thats not even half of it.

the way

lets go the way of the wild
from when we was a child
temperatures are mild
when looks get smiled

animals are what is good to me
its what i like to up and see
lift your leg and take a pee
what is mine used to be free

open your maws
roll your paws
retract your claws
clench your jaws

walk in the meadow together
be wild animals forever
never say never
just have to be clever

up so high in that tree
we can just be
so very timidly happy
thats the scene

let me paint that for you
i implore you
let me explore you
we are the ones that make two

eat fruit and plants
lets not wear pants
lets forget our rants
give it a chance ya?

i want to live in the forest
and forget
what i remember to be city life
glamourous as it is
lets go to the wild

bambi fan

a bambi fan is what i am

more rhymes

phones ring
fat ladies sing

hot summer days
cut offs with frays

pidgeons with bread
inside my head

knowlage is power
makes politicians cower

hot in the shower
high in my tower

get your pet
back to the vet

head in the clouds
walking through crowds

when i go to the forest
i pick trees for the florist

went to the path again
so i could feel the rain

pce

rhymes

stand to see the sunrise
settle for a compromise

expand before you minimize
contract before you maximize

you talk, i listen
you shine, i glisten

im magic
your tragic

i play tetris
on my mattress

menthol in my cigarette
salad with my vinaigrette

my shot gun
your pot, hun

scream when it hurts
sing when it flirts

pikachu
i choose you

pce~

mom

i will never forget the time my mom typed "at" instead of "@" while typing out her e-mail.